My FIRST post

Hi everyone! My name is Ben. I live in Pleasanton, CA and grew up there. After I graduated high school in 2000 I went to school at BYH-Hawaii for a semester and the Utah Valley State College for a semester. I then went on a mission for my church to the Philippines. Then went back to college at UVSC. But now I am back here in good old California going to school at Cal State Eastbay and working for my brother. I am the assistant computer administrator. I am 23 years old and hapilly married to Brittany. She is beautiful and a wonderful wife. Probably sounds like I have everything going my way, huh! Well I don't. I got a little bit of a problem. It is called depression. Yeah it sucks for the most part. I feel like there is two people inside of me, the depressed crazy one and the brilliant charismatic one. If the brilliant charismatic one could get control of the depressed crazy one then I will change the world. You will probably hear about me for something great. But if the crazy side of me takes control, I will probably be one of those sob stories. So I feel like I am at a crossroad right now. Which side is going to win. I am rooting for the brilliant side, I am playing to win. I think all the great people have some craziness in them but they learned ho to control it and direct it in a manner that helped them become great. So the depression is either a blessing or a curse. I am shooting to be great and either I am going to be the best or fail miserably. There isn't much middle ground. So watch out world, here I come.