Great News!

I got some Great News today. My wife is pregnant. She took an ept test and it gave us the plus sign. So, hopefully we are a part of the %99 effective. My wife wanted a baby when we first got married in August of 2004. I didn't. I wasn't ready. In february 2005, I started likeing the idea a lot more and told my wife that we should start trying to have a kid in August of 2005. Now it is November and she should be about two weeks pregnant. Hopefully. I not sure if I would like a boy or a girl. It would be fun to have a boy because I would love to teach him to play baseball and other sports, how to treat girls right, how to be a man, and all of that good stuff. The father son deal. It would also be nice to have a boy first so he can stick up for his siblings and lead the way for them. He can be tough with a sensative side. :-) If I had a girl I would be wrapped around her finger. I will be one of those dads who are extremely close to there daughter. Girls in general are extremely special to me but to have a baby girl of my own, that would be awesome. A boy or a girl would be awesome. I just want one of each eventually. Not both right away. I feel like I would be missing something if I had only boys or only girls. I am excited for both. But I would also get something different and special if I only had one or the other. What I really want is a Healthy baby. Boy or girl. I want the best for my baby.
My wife, Brittany, doesn't want to get to excited about it yet. She doesn't want to be let down. I feel the same way but it is hard to keep it in. I am so excited to have a kid. I know there will be hard times with them but I think the good times will be worth all the stress and pain. Right now I have my wife to live for. Now I am going to have my wife and a kid. I need to get more stable. I need to work harder. This is going to be cool. The only bad part is I have to wait 9 freakin' months for the kid to pop out. I am very excited!!!! I hope that stupid test is right! I am going to have a baby, hahahah! YEAH!!!!

Things going on

(This is my Angry Face)

Nothing much has been going on. I have just been working alot. Yesterday I woke up at 5:10 a.m. to go to work with my brother. I went to Concord and he ended up not being there. It isn't his fault. He said he would call me if we were doing it but I forgot about that. So I went into work at 8. I was actually there at 6:45 but no one was there. I just read my book. So I worked from 8 to 5 and then went to class from 6 till 7:30 and then went back to concord until 2 in the mroning on Friday. I freakin flew home though. I was going about 90mph as the average. It took me at the most 20 minutes to get home. I was flying. Today I worked from 11 till 5 and then went to school until 7:30. I left early again. So lately I have been just working. But it is good because I am making some good money and I won't be working that much next week since it is thanksgiving.

I have been reading the book "Pete Rose the prison without bars." I don't like it that much. I wasn't written well and Pete Rose just sounds like he is an idiot. He just blames everything on a disease (gambling, wants to take risks) that he claims he doesn't have and never had. Yeah, it doesn't make sense. He just sounds like he was not really educated and is set in his ways. But I would have to say that he does deserve to be in the Hall of Fame. How could you not leave someone out that has done that much in baseball. He was a great player. I didn't say he deserves to be able to coach again or anything like that but he does deserve to be in the Hall. I would vote for him.

Well, I am done for the night. I am not going crazy tonight so that is good. Good night ya'll and remember, keep your head on straight or, as Martha Steart would say "You just don't fit in," if you don't. Late

Ben Hall

P.S. It is weird that no one will probably read this. It is my journal. How does it feel to be sneaking around reading other peoples thoughts? I know you are. You feel all slick and sneaky huh! Leave comments if you would like.

My FIRST post

Hi everyone! My name is Ben. I live in Pleasanton, CA and grew up there. After I graduated high school in 2000 I went to school at BYH-Hawaii for a semester and the Utah Valley State College for a semester. I then went on a mission for my church to the Philippines. Then went back to college at UVSC. But now I am back here in good old California going to school at Cal State Eastbay and working for my brother. I am the assistant computer administrator. I am 23 years old and hapilly married to Brittany. She is beautiful and a wonderful wife. Probably sounds like I have everything going my way, huh! Well I don't. I got a little bit of a problem. It is called depression. Yeah it sucks for the most part. I feel like there is two people inside of me, the depressed crazy one and the brilliant charismatic one. If the brilliant charismatic one could get control of the depressed crazy one then I will change the world. You will probably hear about me for something great. But if the crazy side of me takes control, I will probably be one of those sob stories. So I feel like I am at a crossroad right now. Which side is going to win. I am rooting for the brilliant side, I am playing to win. I think all the great people have some craziness in them but they learned ho to control it and direct it in a manner that helped them become great. So the depression is either a blessing or a curse. I am shooting to be great and either I am going to be the best or fail miserably. There isn't much middle ground. So watch out world, here I come.